I'm going through a weird moment.
Last night, me and some of my regions participants got together at a Mexican restaurant for a 'TGIO' party. We had a great time. I consumed many margaritas. Yes, I got well over buzzed. Not drunk, but wow, I felt nice. And I hadnt been out like that in ages. The daughter even came along to be my designated driver. It was great. I think I have myself some new local friends that I can actually meet with face to face for stuff.
While I was in good spirits when I got home, I decided to give BaxterMarie a bath. She hasnt had one since I got her. She smelled like a turd.
She was a really good girl. She struggled, of course, but not badly, I didnt get a single scratch, and she didnt utter one single meow in protest. Jeffrey was more concerned than anything. He has come to think of BaxterMarie as his. His cat. His toy.
He is not a vocal cat by any means. The only time he ever meows is when he see's the gushy food can...lol. So it was totally surprising that as I gave BaxterMarie her bath (which I did in the kitchen sink) Jeffrey kept walking back and forth at my feet meowing. He finally had enough of it and jumped up on the counter to watch BaxterMarie get the rest of her bath.
She was not a happy kitteh with me when it was all done and I had her mostly dry. She went off to re-bathe herself and pout. She wouldnt even sleep with me last night...lol.
Now, on to the things that are bringing me down. It is all pretty much in the gaming world.
I have one character who has a huge crush on another. I thought the two of them were going to get together evenually. I mean, the player of the other character gave me that impression - so my character has been very flirty, in her own bashful way. She gets nothing in return. Blah.
And then, within the 'crew', and working with that same player on the out of character level, we have been trying to get our new recruits more active and whatnot. I'm tossing out ideas and stuff. Hell, I have been doing that with the creators of the game to get more people active in writing since they advertise this game as a writing based game. All Role Play.
I keep getting let down by people. I feel unappreciated for my efforts.
So, I decided I am just going to withdraw. No more tossing out ideas. I am feeling like when I contact this player, I am being a bother now, so I will nip that in the bud. If he wants to talk to me, or my characters (I have two in the same crew) he can contact me.
Its a pissy attitude to have, but I have been playing these sorts of text based RP games for ages now, and in every one of them, I try to get more people involved, try to inspire, try new things. And every time, people just let me down. Hell, sometimes my work or ideas have been given to others. That stings quite a bit.
So, there it all is. Blah, huh?
I suppose my attitude is getting a little more somber with the coming holidays as well. I am not a cheery festive person by nature, and the holidays always seem to bum me out. I just want them to be over.
hopefully my next post will be a happier one.